selamat datang~! from malaysia i call...
currently in my uncle's house, all the way up a mountain overlooking the capital of malaysia...
bleah.. dunno wad to blog also...
my cousin's keyboard is cranky. -.-
i can only type 1/10th of my normal speed with his keyboard...
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Saturday, July 28, 2007
army countdown : 50 days
Haiz... I'll be going to army soon...
army army army... its sort of like a minor-fantasy for me... (please don't think in the perverted way.)
but, its going to take me away from so many things....
Friends, family, commitment... everything will be new...
The reason why I said that its going to be like a minor fantasy for me, its because, for once in my life, I'm going to be paid for training.
Yes.
There's no gym on earth that will pay you for exercising, no swimming pool that will pay you for entry, and no field that will pay you for running on it..
There are sacrifices though,
1) I have to content with a blazing sun while I'm wearing a combat suit that is going to give me horrid tan lines
2) Arrogant officers and leaders who exist to make the life of their men miserable. (There is a difference between pushing for excellence and pushing for misery)
3) Inability to communicate with people outside the prison.
4) Questionable health and hygiene measures.
I'm looking forward for army, seriously, its going to be an ultimate life-changing experience, but I'm expecting positive results...
I'm preparing, I'm training, I'm working hard now.
Because its going to be a whole new competition inside, and I'm going to give myself a wide headstart... so far to a point that my old self would never be able to even dream of.
In fact, my current strength and physical fitness is something I never even dreamt of..
heh. Exercising is way cool.
The results that it provides - is way cooler.
army army army... its sort of like a minor-fantasy for me... (please don't think in the perverted way.)
but, its going to take me away from so many things....
Friends, family, commitment... everything will be new...
The reason why I said that its going to be like a minor fantasy for me, its because, for once in my life, I'm going to be paid for training.
Yes.
There's no gym on earth that will pay you for exercising, no swimming pool that will pay you for entry, and no field that will pay you for running on it..
There are sacrifices though,
1) I have to content with a blazing sun while I'm wearing a combat suit that is going to give me horrid tan lines
2) Arrogant officers and leaders who exist to make the life of their men miserable. (There is a difference between pushing for excellence and pushing for misery)
3) Inability to communicate with people outside the prison.
4) Questionable health and hygiene measures.
I'm looking forward for army, seriously, its going to be an ultimate life-changing experience, but I'm expecting positive results...
I'm preparing, I'm training, I'm working hard now.
Because its going to be a whole new competition inside, and I'm going to give myself a wide headstart... so far to a point that my old self would never be able to even dream of.
In fact, my current strength and physical fitness is something I never even dreamt of..
heh. Exercising is way cool.
The results that it provides - is way cooler.
Friday, July 27, 2007
Can you answer 19 questions about your....
DON'T change your top friends, and
answer 19 questions about the 1st
person in your top friends.
1) What's their name?
Alvin
2) Do you trust them?
Haha.. Yah.
3) How did you meet them?
At a steamboat dinner.
4) How old were you when you first met?
20
5) Is this person one of your best friends?
Much more then that I think.. haha...
6) Say something that only makes sense to you and this person.
He says that you should play basketball.
7) Is this person older than you?
Nope
8) When was the last time you saw them?
Uhh.. 2 hours ago?
10) Are you their b/f or g/f?
Lol. Yah
11) Do you have nicknames
Er... no... unless Mukozi and Goomba is taken.. =X
12) Do you have pics of this person on your Myspace?
ha. Nope.
13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
many, many, many times....
14) Do you think the person will repost this?
This is a bulletin done on a blog. so nobody will repost this. LMAO.
15) Could you live with this person?
Hmmmm.... Guess so!
16) Could you live without them?
... I guess so.... but it'll be kinda sad... huh...
17) Why is this person number 1 on your top friends?
Coz he is a little kid. I give way to little kids.
18) Have you seen this person cry?.
... yah...
19)Has this person every seen you cry?
i think so....
answer 19 questions about the 1st
person in your top friends.
1) What's their name?
Alvin
2) Do you trust them?
Haha.. Yah.
3) How did you meet them?
At a steamboat dinner.
4) How old were you when you first met?
20
5) Is this person one of your best friends?
Much more then that I think.. haha...
6) Say something that only makes sense to you and this person.
He says that you should play basketball.
7) Is this person older than you?
Nope
8) When was the last time you saw them?
Uhh.. 2 hours ago?
10) Are you their b/f or g/f?
Lol. Yah
11) Do you have nicknames
Er... no... unless Mukozi and Goomba is taken.. =X
12) Do you have pics of this person on your Myspace?
ha. Nope.
13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
many, many, many times....
14) Do you think the person will repost this?
This is a bulletin done on a blog. so nobody will repost this. LMAO.
15) Could you live with this person?
Hmmmm.... Guess so!
16) Could you live without them?
... I guess so.... but it'll be kinda sad... huh...
17) Why is this person number 1 on your top friends?
Coz he is a little kid. I give way to little kids.
18) Have you seen this person cry?.
... yah...
19)Has this person every seen you cry?
i think so....
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Three Months : A Prelude.
Compromise, accommodate, tolerate...
Alot of people ask me what it takes to love a person.
Funny they should ask me that question, especially when there are hardly anyone I know who has been in more relationships then me.
But the reason they ask me is because, in every relationship, I'd pour every single thing I have into it... To the point of obscene foolishness...
Love is blind... isn't it?
Nah... Like what I said a long, long time ago... Love isn't blind. It just closes one eye and stares away with the other...
I was at the gym today, when I met a very, very old friend... Over the years, he lost all faith in relationships, not wanting to ever get his heart broken again, and again...
After helping him spot a couple of presses, and talking to him about my past relationship and current one, i realized that he was crying... (yes, while doing the presses. ironic, isn't it.)
He became very quiet after he finished his set, and he set up and looked me straight in the eye and said, "I hate your boyfriend."
I understood, but I was stunned. It was a seemingly random statement coming from true anger.
.. or rather, anger at his own life...
I quietly proceeded to help him replace the weight bearings.
"I hate him because he'll hurt you again, like how the rest hurt us. I hate him because he'll never truly understand how much to value you, because he's never been in so many countless broken aj relationships."
"And what you propose I do?"
"Nothing, its my fault that I was in a stupid relationship when you were single anyway."
... I proceeded to turn red.
He was my senior, when I was in the Brigade, and I respected him a hell lot.
Not only because of his flare for leadership, but his unwavering trust in his friends.
His eyes told a different story now....
somehow, somewhere, over the course of time... people came and tore out big and small chunks of his heart, till it became irreparably scarred...
I felt like hugging him, but I didn't want to give him to false hope that I would ever defect to him... And it would only shatter his already broken ego.
How many relationships have I seen broken? How many have I seen brought together just to be torn apart again?
Just because I'm different, doesn't mean the rest are the different too...
Love, Loyalty, Trust, Honesty, Openness, Sincerity, Patience, Compromise, Accommodate, Tolerate, Care, Concern, Stability, Encouragement, Courage, Endurance, Intimacy...
All these are the key factors in a relationship... without one, it will fail, without saying..
Three months.
Hey dear, its been three months already, since I asked you to be my boyfriend...
I'll still hold true to the words I said, and always will...
With all the above, and more...
be my boyfriend
be my love,
be my heart
and my tears
Cause agony never new such sweet pain
as to admonish love as to receive
for now
for ever,
a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry
a heart to carry and a strong arm to rely on...
I will be your everything.
As you will be mine....
Alot of people ask me what it takes to love a person.
Funny they should ask me that question, especially when there are hardly anyone I know who has been in more relationships then me.
But the reason they ask me is because, in every relationship, I'd pour every single thing I have into it... To the point of obscene foolishness...
Love is blind... isn't it?
Nah... Like what I said a long, long time ago... Love isn't blind. It just closes one eye and stares away with the other...
I was at the gym today, when I met a very, very old friend... Over the years, he lost all faith in relationships, not wanting to ever get his heart broken again, and again...
After helping him spot a couple of presses, and talking to him about my past relationship and current one, i realized that he was crying... (yes, while doing the presses. ironic, isn't it.)
He became very quiet after he finished his set, and he set up and looked me straight in the eye and said, "I hate your boyfriend."
I understood, but I was stunned. It was a seemingly random statement coming from true anger.
.. or rather, anger at his own life...
I quietly proceeded to help him replace the weight bearings.
"I hate him because he'll hurt you again, like how the rest hurt us. I hate him because he'll never truly understand how much to value you, because he's never been in so many countless broken aj relationships."
"And what you propose I do?"
"Nothing, its my fault that I was in a stupid relationship when you were single anyway."
... I proceeded to turn red.
He was my senior, when I was in the Brigade, and I respected him a hell lot.
Not only because of his flare for leadership, but his unwavering trust in his friends.
His eyes told a different story now....
somehow, somewhere, over the course of time... people came and tore out big and small chunks of his heart, till it became irreparably scarred...
I felt like hugging him, but I didn't want to give him to false hope that I would ever defect to him... And it would only shatter his already broken ego.
How many relationships have I seen broken? How many have I seen brought together just to be torn apart again?
Just because I'm different, doesn't mean the rest are the different too...
Love, Loyalty, Trust, Honesty, Openness, Sincerity, Patience, Compromise, Accommodate, Tolerate, Care, Concern, Stability, Encouragement, Courage, Endurance, Intimacy...
All these are the key factors in a relationship... without one, it will fail, without saying..
Three months.
Hey dear, its been three months already, since I asked you to be my boyfriend...
I'll still hold true to the words I said, and always will...
With all the above, and more...
be my boyfriend
be my love,
be my heart
and my tears
Cause agony never new such sweet pain
as to admonish love as to receive
for now
for ever,
a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry
a heart to carry and a strong arm to rely on...
I will be your everything.
As you will be mine....
Monday, July 23, 2007
Lol. This is my dear's.. apparantly he's less sinful.
| Greed: | Medium | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Medium | |
| Sloth: | High | |
| Envy: | Very Low | |
| Lust: | High | |
| Pride: | Medium |
Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
Hmm....
| Greed: | High | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Very High | |
| Sloth: | Low | |
| Envy: | Medium | |
| Lust: | High | |
| Pride: | Very High |
Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
Sunday, July 22, 2007
A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber started to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things on various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.
"Well, you just have to go out in the streets to realise that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God exists, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.
Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt.
The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed, "barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty, long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."
"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer, "that's the point! God, too, DOES exist! That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
As the barber started to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things on various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.
"Well, you just have to go out in the streets to realise that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God exists, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.
Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt.
The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed, "barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty, long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."
"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer, "that's the point! God, too, DOES exist! That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
qUizzzyy!
1. How are you feeling today?
I'm feeling bored like hell, and shitty too. There isn't any motivation for me to go out or do something really productive.
2. Where did you go yesterday?
Went out with my dear to watch a movie
3. Who do you miss badly?
Alvin. Seriously, he keeps plaguing my mind. ~*grins*~ quite sad, but enough to keep my mind preoccupied for about 30 mins before fazing out.
4. What are you doing now?
uhh. This quiz? Oh... and... nothing. Can you actually believe that?
5. Honestly, are you a racist?
Ow... Hmm... I'm not honest, I'm not racist.
But seriously, there are some people who really offended me in the past... but bygones be bygones, lets all spray baygon at those that would discriminate.
6. Do you like rock/hardcore music?
nope. disrupt my karma, peace and equilibrium in my intestines. ROFL
7. What's your hobby?
Hmm. I'm a hardcore gymmer and swimmer. err. Also researching different calories on the net. heh. Seriously, I've got nothing better to do nowadays.
8. Where do you wanna go right now?
Umm... Botanical gardens to run. But I'm just seriously lazy to just take a bus all the way there.
9. What do you see in life?
I see life as a massive competition. Its a race where you get ahead of others or you get dragged behind. We all have infinite potential,
10. If you could do anything that's without punishment, what would you do?
... that never did cross my mind before you know... being a very "rules" person... but.. umm... I guess I'd try and rob a bank. *grins*
11. Do you follow the law?
Eh. I follow most laws, except one which tends to flare up at my face ever so often. Don't bother asking me about it.
12. Are you considered as a happy person?
To a certain extent yes... I really have to get my body into tip-top condition though..
13. Where are your parents?
hmm.. They just came back. And my mum was like staring at my computer screen.... o_O
14. Do you smoke alot?
NO. I don't smoke. I hate smoking, and I will N-E-V-E-R smoke. Thats of course unless they made a scientific discovery that states that smoking is a actually good for health.
15. Do you drink alot?
NO. Again. I hate alcohol. Don't care about that bullcrap that wine is good for your health because it thins the blood. I still hate it. Anything that meddles with my brain is meddling with ME! ~ and of course, you won't want that... heh.
16. What do you think about cats/kittens?
bleah. girly stuff. Cats are not good investments because they'll run away sooner or later, they scratch your furniture and make purring noises only when they're happy or want you to make them happy.
17. Do you still watch Barney?
Barney is scary. Seriously. Have you seen him say "oooh. We've got a letter! it reads, 'Dear Barney. My mum died, I'm very sad now, please help'"
.. and Barney goes with a big white grin smack across his face, "I'm very sorry! Death is something we all don't like to see, do we kids? Now everybody hold hands and sing 'I love you, you love me 100,000,000 times."
18. Anyone who has inspired you in any ways?
3 people in my life
1) Desmond Chin - Ironically, when he ignored me in primary school, he made me realize one thing, that lying isn't a solution, and it can only developed into more lies. I guess.. even now I won't be able to say sorry properly to him again.
2) Quek Chong Loon - Only got to know him really well in my last year in secondary school, but he inspired me to really work hard. We both convinced each other that working hard in the only solution out of the mess we were in, and... yah, we blew the rooftops of the school.
3) Timothy Foo - Best friend in poly. Heh. He is a living testimony to what an iron spirit is. Even when his family was hit with a crisis, he never gave up and continued to score fantastical results for his examinations. But above all, he was a strong Christian who carried me through alot of dark times in my life.
19. Do you like being in school?
Hmm... Yah. *grins*
20. Are you anti-social?
I don't think I could really be one. Doesn't help me or my future to be so yah? Impractical.
21. Do you trust your friends easily?
I don't trust people easily, but I normally let people believe that I trust them easily. (haha. Betcha don't even know what I wrote.)
22. Ever betrayed the person you cared the most?
I did, once or twice, in a pique of rage or jealousy. But if ever I did, it was only because I truly cared...
23. What's on your mind right now?
What should I do tomorrow... Its getting quite repetitive...
24. Rain, sun or windy?
Sun + Wind! pls pls pls... I do not need a flock of clouds, a few sparse clouds will do. But pleassee.. no rain already!
25. Are you in love?
No. I'm not in love.
I'm in abject tyranny, I'm being forced to...
*whimper*
heh heh.. just kidding... Love my dearie lots...
26. What's your sibling doing?
Who knows what he's doing. He could be doing ANYTHING. seriously. not as though i'd wanna care like that.
27. Ever been to a dog show?
YEAH! Ever hugged a Golden Retriever? Now THAT's the type of companion a guy needs.
28. Do you eat pork?
Yah. All the time. Don't really like it though, coz it has higher fat content that most other meat.
65% higher then chicken meat
11% higher then beef meat
29. Ever gotten Dengue Fever?
no no... err.. please no?
30. If you can have 1 super power, what would it be?
Teleportation. Unlimited teleportation, haha... it would be so damm cool wouldn't it.
I could like teleport into the guy's locker room when they're changing... and...
err... *cough* nvm...
31. Where do you study? And do you like it?
Finished studying poly. Came out with relatively decent grades... Hope I can study Economics in University....
32. Anything that's bothering you right now?
Yah.. Why can't I see my abs, but I can feel it?. its like so irritating lah... there's one layer of fat that's co..... -
33. Ocean, sea, river or swimming pool?
River would be fun! A river with a beach would be funner! The funnest would be a blue lagoon with white sands, fluffy clouds, bright sunshine and fishes swimming all around the shallows! *dreamy*
34. Have you ever been to UK?
Doesn't really interest me except that I might get to play with Buckingham Palace's Beefeaters's mustaches...
35. What surprises you?
Lots of stuff... umm... I like positive surprises though... but I really, really HATE negative surprises.. (i.e. "oh Andrew! I was late because I wanted to surprise you! surprise!!! - WTF??")
36. What time is it now?
10:55 PM
37. Are you home-sick?
I'm AT HOME.
38. Do you wanna go out and shop?
Kinda.. I need to buy some running shorts.....
39. What do you hate the most?
I hate losing... I find it hard to get over losing... And it can affect me for a long time too... And, don't tell me to take it with a pinch of salt. The wound is painful enough as it is...
40. Remember the past?
Hmm... most of it... yah... but I pretty much live a half-life-dreary-who-knows-where-I-am type of life...
lol... xD
I'm seriously bored. When Andrew starts doing quizzes, its a sure sign he's bored... so a
I'm feeling bored like hell, and shitty too. There isn't any motivation for me to go out or do something really productive.
2. Where did you go yesterday?
Went out with my dear to watch a movie
3. Who do you miss badly?
Alvin. Seriously, he keeps plaguing my mind. ~*grins*~ quite sad, but enough to keep my mind preoccupied for about 30 mins before fazing out.
4. What are you doing now?
uhh. This quiz? Oh... and... nothing. Can you actually believe that?
5. Honestly, are you a racist?
Ow... Hmm... I'm not honest, I'm not racist.
But seriously, there are some people who really offended me in the past... but bygones be bygones, lets all spray baygon at those that would discriminate.
6. Do you like rock/hardcore music?
nope. disrupt my karma, peace and equilibrium in my intestines. ROFL
7. What's your hobby?
Hmm. I'm a hardcore gymmer and swimmer. err. Also researching different calories on the net. heh. Seriously, I've got nothing better to do nowadays.
8. Where do you wanna go right now?
Umm... Botanical gardens to run. But I'm just seriously lazy to just take a bus all the way there.
9. What do you see in life?
I see life as a massive competition. Its a race where you get ahead of others or you get dragged behind. We all have infinite potential,
10. If you could do anything that's without punishment, what would you do?
... that never did cross my mind before you know... being a very "rules" person... but.. umm... I guess I'd try and rob a bank. *grins*
11. Do you follow the law?
Eh. I follow most laws, except one which tends to flare up at my face ever so often. Don't bother asking me about it.
12. Are you considered as a happy person?
To a certain extent yes... I really have to get my body into tip-top condition though..
13. Where are your parents?
hmm.. They just came back. And my mum was like staring at my computer screen.... o_O
14. Do you smoke alot?
NO. I don't smoke. I hate smoking, and I will N-E-V-E-R smoke. Thats of course unless they made a scientific discovery that states that smoking is a actually good for health.
15. Do you drink alot?
NO. Again. I hate alcohol. Don't care about that bullcrap that wine is good for your health because it thins the blood. I still hate it. Anything that meddles with my brain is meddling with ME! ~ and of course, you won't want that... heh.
16. What do you think about cats/kittens?
bleah. girly stuff. Cats are not good investments because they'll run away sooner or later, they scratch your furniture and make purring noises only when they're happy or want you to make them happy.
17. Do you still watch Barney?
Barney is scary. Seriously. Have you seen him say "oooh. We've got a letter! it reads, 'Dear Barney. My mum died, I'm very sad now, please help'"
.. and Barney goes with a big white grin smack across his face, "I'm very sorry! Death is something we all don't like to see, do we kids? Now everybody hold hands and sing 'I love you, you love me 100,000,000 times."
18. Anyone who has inspired you in any ways?
3 people in my life
1) Desmond Chin - Ironically, when he ignored me in primary school, he made me realize one thing, that lying isn't a solution, and it can only developed into more lies. I guess.. even now I won't be able to say sorry properly to him again.
2) Quek Chong Loon - Only got to know him really well in my last year in secondary school, but he inspired me to really work hard. We both convinced each other that working hard in the only solution out of the mess we were in, and... yah, we blew the rooftops of the school.
3) Timothy Foo - Best friend in poly. Heh. He is a living testimony to what an iron spirit is. Even when his family was hit with a crisis, he never gave up and continued to score fantastical results for his examinations. But above all, he was a strong Christian who carried me through alot of dark times in my life.
19. Do you like being in school?
Hmm... Yah. *grins*
20. Are you anti-social?
I don't think I could really be one. Doesn't help me or my future to be so yah? Impractical.
21. Do you trust your friends easily?
I don't trust people easily, but I normally let people believe that I trust them easily. (haha. Betcha don't even know what I wrote.)
22. Ever betrayed the person you cared the most?
I did, once or twice, in a pique of rage or jealousy. But if ever I did, it was only because I truly cared...
23. What's on your mind right now?
What should I do tomorrow... Its getting quite repetitive...
24. Rain, sun or windy?
Sun + Wind! pls pls pls... I do not need a flock of clouds, a few sparse clouds will do. But pleassee.. no rain already!
25. Are you in love?
No. I'm not in love.
I'm in abject tyranny, I'm being forced to...
*whimper*
heh heh.. just kidding... Love my dearie lots...
26. What's your sibling doing?
Who knows what he's doing. He could be doing ANYTHING. seriously. not as though i'd wanna care like that.
27. Ever been to a dog show?
YEAH! Ever hugged a Golden Retriever? Now THAT's the type of companion a guy needs.
28. Do you eat pork?
Yah. All the time. Don't really like it though, coz it has higher fat content that most other meat.
65% higher then chicken meat
11% higher then beef meat
29. Ever gotten Dengue Fever?
no no... err.. please no?
30. If you can have 1 super power, what would it be?
Teleportation. Unlimited teleportation, haha... it would be so damm cool wouldn't it.
I could like teleport into the guy's locker room when they're changing... and...
err... *cough* nvm...
31. Where do you study? And do you like it?
Finished studying poly. Came out with relatively decent grades... Hope I can study Economics in University....
32. Anything that's bothering you right now?
Yah.. Why can't I see my abs, but I can feel it?. its like so irritating lah... there's one layer of fat that's co..... -
33. Ocean, sea, river or swimming pool?
River would be fun! A river with a beach would be funner! The funnest would be a blue lagoon with white sands, fluffy clouds, bright sunshine and fishes swimming all around the shallows! *dreamy*
34. Have you ever been to UK?
Doesn't really interest me except that I might get to play with Buckingham Palace's Beefeaters's mustaches...
35. What surprises you?
Lots of stuff... umm... I like positive surprises though... but I really, really HATE negative surprises.. (i.e. "oh Andrew! I was late because I wanted to surprise you! surprise!!! - WTF??")
36. What time is it now?
10:55 PM
37. Are you home-sick?
I'm AT HOME.
38. Do you wanna go out and shop?
Kinda.. I need to buy some running shorts.....
39. What do you hate the most?
I hate losing... I find it hard to get over losing... And it can affect me for a long time too... And, don't tell me to take it with a pinch of salt. The wound is painful enough as it is...
40. Remember the past?
Hmm... most of it... yah... but I pretty much live a half-life-dreary-who-knows-where-I-am type of life...
lol... xD
I'm seriously bored. When Andrew starts doing quizzes, its a sure sign he's bored... so a
Ineffectual Assimilation.
sometimes, I wish some rules on earth didn't exist...
but it just does...
such as how the government increases GST by 2%, and subsequently increases property taxes as well..
how chewing gum (was) banned and "no eating on the MRT"...
Some of these rules have visible effects, (i.e. our MRT is one of the cleanest transports in the world), but others are virtually incomprehensible...
what people do not understand might be good for them, like how I hated the "no eating on the MRT" rule, and found that it had a meaningless existence - in primary school.
subsequently I became partially grateful - (I still want to eat my breakfast on the train yah!)
Rules are rules, generally for the betterment of mankind, so... the bible is a book of rules.
What we do not understand doesn't mean its wrong.
Like why Jesus has to die for us - (why is a sacrifice even necessary in the first place?)
Like why God and Men are always separated - (if God is almighty, is the seperation necessary in the first place?)
Like why God loves us and would watch us go to hell.
There are lots of stuff we may not understand, and rules within rules within rules...
4 + 4 = 8
means
2 + 2 = 4
means
1 + 1 = 2
all these are fundamental rules, but we can break them down infinitely, and we'll still never see the logic within them..
Earth has day and night
means
Earth moves round the sun
means
Gravitational fields demand that the Earth move in circles round the sun
means
Day and night is directly correlated by gravitational fields
means
... why does gravitational field cause circles? which causes day and night?
... why does the mathematical law cause it to move in circles?
it all boils down to why 1 + 1 = 2.
and so on and so forth.
Law is Law.
Humans do not define natural law, and supernatural law.
Laws will always be there, like it or not.
It is not affected by time, culture, tradition, root or location. And it is standard truth throughout the world.
Law = Truth.
Truth = Law.
Two truths that do not correlate to each other, means that only one is correct, or both are wrong.
Christianity can never be classified into the new-aged dictum of "All Religions Are One", because of the fundamental truths that prevails throughout it
1) "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me"
(John 14:6)
2)"I am the LORD, and there is no other; Besides Me there is no God. I will gird you, though you have not known Me; That men may know from the rising to the setting of the sun That there is no one besides Me.I am the LORD, and there is no other,"
(Isaiah 45:5-6)
both are words spoken by God, in the bible. And thus, by saying otherwise, God would be lying. And Christianity shouldn't even exist in the first place.
But since its Truth, by all reliable Christian/Catholic context, then it can only clash with any other religion saying otherwise.
Thus, I conclude my stand that Christianity is a singular religion that stands on its own, unable to be assimilated into any other religions without compromising the truths that make the fundamentals of Christianity.
but it just does...
such as how the government increases GST by 2%, and subsequently increases property taxes as well..
how chewing gum (was) banned and "no eating on the MRT"...
Some of these rules have visible effects, (i.e. our MRT is one of the cleanest transports in the world), but others are virtually incomprehensible...
what people do not understand might be good for them, like how I hated the "no eating on the MRT" rule, and found that it had a meaningless existence - in primary school.
subsequently I became partially grateful - (I still want to eat my breakfast on the train yah!)
Rules are rules, generally for the betterment of mankind, so... the bible is a book of rules.
What we do not understand doesn't mean its wrong.
Like why Jesus has to die for us - (why is a sacrifice even necessary in the first place?)
Like why God and Men are always separated - (if God is almighty, is the seperation necessary in the first place?)
Like why God loves us and would watch us go to hell.
There are lots of stuff we may not understand, and rules within rules within rules...
4 + 4 = 8
means
2 + 2 = 4
means
1 + 1 = 2
all these are fundamental rules, but we can break them down infinitely, and we'll still never see the logic within them..
Earth has day and night
means
Earth moves round the sun
means
Gravitational fields demand that the Earth move in circles round the sun
means
Day and night is directly correlated by gravitational fields
means
... why does gravitational field cause circles? which causes day and night?
... why does the mathematical law cause it to move in circles?
it all boils down to why 1 + 1 = 2.
and so on and so forth.
Law is Law.
Humans do not define natural law, and supernatural law.
Laws will always be there, like it or not.
It is not affected by time, culture, tradition, root or location. And it is standard truth throughout the world.
Law = Truth.
Truth = Law.
Two truths that do not correlate to each other, means that only one is correct, or both are wrong.
Christianity can never be classified into the new-aged dictum of "All Religions Are One", because of the fundamental truths that prevails throughout it
1) "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me"
(John 14:6)
2)"I am the LORD, and there is no other; Besides Me there is no God. I will gird you, though you have not known Me; That men may know from the rising to the setting of the sun That there is no one besides Me.I am the LORD, and there is no other,"
(Isaiah 45:5-6)
both are words spoken by God, in the bible. And thus, by saying otherwise, God would be lying. And Christianity shouldn't even exist in the first place.
But since its Truth, by all reliable Christian/Catholic context, then it can only clash with any other religion saying otherwise.
Thus, I conclude my stand that Christianity is a singular religion that stands on its own, unable to be assimilated into any other religions without compromising the truths that make the fundamentals of Christianity.
Winners and Losers
The Winner is always a part of the answer;
The Loser is always a part of the problem.
The Winner always has a program;
The Loser always has an excuse.
The Winner says, "Let me do it for you.";
The Loser says, "That's not my job."
The Winner sees an answer for every problem;
The Loser sees a problem in every answer.
The Winner sees the goal between two defenders;
The Loser sees two defenders guarding the goal.
The Winner says, "It may be difficult but it's possible."
The Loser says, "It may be possible but it's too difficult."
You can make the choice...
Choose to be a winner!
=)
The Loser is always a part of the problem.
The Winner always has a program;
The Loser always has an excuse.
The Winner says, "Let me do it for you.";
The Loser says, "That's not my job."
The Winner sees an answer for every problem;
The Loser sees a problem in every answer.
The Winner sees the goal between two defenders;
The Loser sees two defenders guarding the goal.
The Winner says, "It may be difficult but it's possible."
The Loser says, "It may be possible but it's too difficult."
You can make the choice...
Choose to be a winner!
=)
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Know Me Know Me!!!
Its amazing how much people know about you... some people who like you know you inside out, some people are forced to know who you are coz their friends talk about you....
... and worse (or better still), some people want to know you so they can bitch about you.
ta-da! life is a journey of bitching. Its the endlessss circle of bitching.. xD
... Fun. Eh?. Too bad, I couldn't be bothered... =) Just don't let me find out who the originator of the bitch quote was.
Lol... I've put a quizzie on my blog recently, and unlike my bro's quizzies.. apparently mine is quite.. umm.. difficult..
So I think I'll just give an explanation to all the quizzes here!
Q1 : What is Andrew's favourite color?
Its black! Umm... quite obvious from the color of my blog and the dark clothes that I usually wear.... Black is a slimming color, a highly matchable color and best of all, black can be worn with most bronzy skin tones like mine! xD
Q2 : My blog www.angel_boy.blogspot.com is a derivation from?
Its a derivation from my very first IRC nick in #myplace.
Not that a-n-g-e-l-_-b-o-y is nine letters long, the maximum letters that can be used as a nickname in IRC
Q3 : Out of this list, what does Andrew NOT like to do?
Ans : Clubbing.
Andrew hates clubbing. He hates alot of other stuffs too, but he hates clubbing. Due to an unspeakable past history, and a whole lot of other factors (i.e. smoke, ear-bleeding-music, grinders etc.). But the question is quite easy right?
Its obviously not swimming, coz I swim almost every other day, not cycling, coz I seem to pester everybody to go ECP to cycle and... not wakeboarding, coz it is a high-intensity sport that involves water! xD
Q4 : How many blogs did I have prior to this blog?
Ans : 3
I had one blog recording my past chapters, spanning from Sec 1 - Sec 2, then I deleted it coz it was ugly.
Then I had another from Sec 2 - Sec 4, with.. umm.... alot of gangster stuff inside... =/
Then I had another from Sec 4 - Pre-Poly, with.. umm... lots of dumb stuff relating to the clubbing scene and waterbar.
Q 5 : What is Andrew's most fav anime?
Ans : Gravitation
seriously, you don't know this? umm... anybody who read my blog would really know I guess, (look, if you don't believe me, just look at the banner above my blog music player... )
Shuichi Shindo is my most favorite Anime character =)
Q 6 : What is the ASH?
Ans : A name of a group of friends
Haha.. betcha this is confusing, coz I've referred them to alot as a band... But nope, we're merely a group of friends with interest in Christian music. We form an intrinsic part of a band, coz we play different key instruments and specialize in different areas.
However, above all, we're a group of friends who have been together since we were kids, and have always been looking out for each other.
And of course, with an unbeatable ten years of experience playing together in the same band.
Q 7 : Which of these games have Andrew NOT played before?
Ans : Pokemon Diamond
Haha.. actually I don't blame anyone if they got it wrong, but its guessable,
Super bomberman V2, Clock Tower and Fatal Fury came out at about the same time, and they're game I played during my hardcore gaming secondary school period...
.. as for Pokemon Diamond... I dont have a Nintendo DS, so... yah... =(
Q 8 : Which one of these NAPFA stations does Andrew hate the most?
Ans : 2.4 km Run/Walk
I hate it. They should call it 2.4 km Run. NOT walk. Virtually anybody who walks fails. And I've always had problem with this station.
Whats the point of being able to do 12 pull ups and failing at your 2.4 km run?
jeez.
Q 9 : Myplace is actually a...
Ans : Channel in IRC.
Lol. I always refer to Myplace as #Myplace on my blog, and the # in front of the word means its an IRC channel, for any IRC users... =)
Q 10 : Of all these, which has Andrew not done?
Ans : Fracture his elbow.
HAha... I havn't fractured my elbow!
It can't be A, coz I've kissed (*cough*) before, [Hey! That was before he became a superstar! jeez].
It can't be B, coz I've been to australia and my photo of a wombat is still in my closet
It can't be D, coz I love earthworms. RIGHT! They're good for feeding turtles!! xD
*grins*
And its Eveleen Jie who scored the highest!!! xD
*thunderous applause*
heh heh..
Andrew is actually quite a shallow person. He's quite self centered and arrogant, so he shall award himself the grand prize of $1000 to himself!
after all, who knows me better then...... ME!!!!
lol. ok. me. xD
... and worse (or better still), some people want to know you so they can bitch about you.
ta-da! life is a journey of bitching. Its the endlessss circle of bitching.. xD
... Fun. Eh?. Too bad, I couldn't be bothered... =) Just don't let me find out who the originator of the bitch quote was.
Lol... I've put a quizzie on my blog recently, and unlike my bro's quizzies.. apparently mine is quite.. umm.. difficult..
So I think I'll just give an explanation to all the quizzes here!
Q1 : What is Andrew's favourite color?
Its black! Umm... quite obvious from the color of my blog and the dark clothes that I usually wear.... Black is a slimming color, a highly matchable color and best of all, black can be worn with most bronzy skin tones like mine! xD
Q2 : My blog www.angel_boy.blogspot.com is a derivation from?
Its a derivation from my very first IRC nick in #myplace.
Not that a-n-g-e-l-_-b-o-y is nine letters long, the maximum letters that can be used as a nickname in IRC
Q3 : Out of this list, what does Andrew NOT like to do?
Ans : Clubbing.
Andrew hates clubbing. He hates alot of other stuffs too, but he hates clubbing. Due to an unspeakable past history, and a whole lot of other factors (i.e. smoke, ear-bleeding-music, grinders etc.). But the question is quite easy right?
Its obviously not swimming, coz I swim almost every other day, not cycling, coz I seem to pester everybody to go ECP to cycle and... not wakeboarding, coz it is a high-intensity sport that involves water! xD
Q4 : How many blogs did I have prior to this blog?
Ans : 3
I had one blog recording my past chapters, spanning from Sec 1 - Sec 2, then I deleted it coz it was ugly.
Then I had another from Sec 2 - Sec 4, with.. umm.... alot of gangster stuff inside... =/
Then I had another from Sec 4 - Pre-Poly, with.. umm... lots of dumb stuff relating to the clubbing scene and waterbar.
Q 5 : What is Andrew's most fav anime?
Ans : Gravitation
seriously, you don't know this? umm... anybody who read my blog would really know I guess, (look, if you don't believe me, just look at the banner above my blog music player... )
Shuichi Shindo is my most favorite Anime character =)
Q 6 : What is the ASH?
Ans : A name of a group of friends
Haha.. betcha this is confusing, coz I've referred them to alot as a band... But nope, we're merely a group of friends with interest in Christian music. We form an intrinsic part of a band, coz we play different key instruments and specialize in different areas.
However, above all, we're a group of friends who have been together since we were kids, and have always been looking out for each other.
And of course, with an unbeatable ten years of experience playing together in the same band.
Q 7 : Which of these games have Andrew NOT played before?
Ans : Pokemon Diamond
Haha.. actually I don't blame anyone if they got it wrong, but its guessable,
Super bomberman V2, Clock Tower and Fatal Fury came out at about the same time, and they're game I played during my hardcore gaming secondary school period...
.. as for Pokemon Diamond... I dont have a Nintendo DS, so... yah... =(
Q 8 : Which one of these NAPFA stations does Andrew hate the most?
Ans : 2.4 km Run/Walk
I hate it. They should call it 2.4 km Run. NOT walk. Virtually anybody who walks fails. And I've always had problem with this station.
Whats the point of being able to do 12 pull ups and failing at your 2.4 km run?
jeez.
Q 9 : Myplace is actually a...
Ans : Channel in IRC.
Lol. I always refer to Myplace as #Myplace on my blog, and the # in front of the word means its an IRC channel, for any IRC users... =)
Q 10 : Of all these, which has Andrew not done?
Ans : Fracture his elbow.
HAha... I havn't fractured my elbow!
It can't be A, coz I've kissed (*cough*) before, [Hey! That was before he became a superstar! jeez].
It can't be B, coz I've been to australia and my photo of a wombat is still in my closet
It can't be D, coz I love earthworms. RIGHT! They're good for feeding turtles!! xD
*grins*
And its Eveleen Jie who scored the highest!!! xD
*thunderous applause*
heh heh..
Andrew is actually quite a shallow person. He's quite self centered and arrogant, so he shall award himself the grand prize of $1000 to himself!
after all, who knows me better then...... ME!!!!
lol. ok. me. xD
Monday, July 16, 2007
Yay for Mr. Baey!
"Gay identity is very fundamental, it is as fundamental as your ethnic identity, as your linguistic identity, as your religious identity. That being the case, therefore the state through its tools, law, should give equal recognition to that liberty to express your identity."
-Alex Au, Founding Member, Gay Equality Lobby Group
"Personally, I think that the whip should be lifted for a very open debate and open expression of opinion by the MPs. And if that is so I would vote for a repeal of the act. From my understanding of my parliamentary colleagues, my guess is that I will be the minority."
-Baey Yam Keng, Member of Parliament, Tanjong Pagar GRC
Yay for Mr. Bay!! xD Tanjong Pagar finally makes a stand for itself... expectedly, coming from the capital of AJs.
hmm... hope that stupid act would be repealed soon.
-Alex Au, Founding Member, Gay Equality Lobby Group
"Personally, I think that the whip should be lifted for a very open debate and open expression of opinion by the MPs. And if that is so I would vote for a repeal of the act. From my understanding of my parliamentary colleagues, my guess is that I will be the minority."
-Baey Yam Keng, Member of Parliament, Tanjong Pagar GRC
Yay for Mr. Bay!! xD Tanjong Pagar finally makes a stand for itself... expectedly, coming from the capital of AJs.
hmm... hope that stupid act would be repealed soon.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
o.O
| You Are 84% Tortured Genius |
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Saturday, July 14, 2007
Disapproval.
Well... Got my brother's view on some stuff at least. Yah, clearer on some aspects le.
Especially his disapproval of my stead.
...
Haiz, I've always wondered what was my family's stand on my homosexual behavior... They've always been very passive about it, with occasional flares when I become over-passionate about my stand..
My younger brother is a typical homophobe straight guy, or at least he acts like one.
My elder brother is a leader in church.
My mum is a sunday school teacher.
My dad is an elder in my church.
and. Their son is gay.
sometimes, I wonder if they're accepting or tolerating. Or secretly planning something to "destroy" the homosexual thingie in me.
will gays go to hell?
I hear that fire and brimstone message around me everyday... I get quite sick of it, coz nobody understands that its not a choice that I wanted to make...
I mean, who doesn't want to have a girlfriend?
Who wants to have weird stares at people when they hold their partners hands?
Who likes to be talked behind their back?
Who likes to be shunned by the public?
Who likes to be hounded by the government?
Its not like I'm some fucking ugly freak or something that I can't find a girl.
Even if I have a girlfriend, I'll be hurting her more, because I can't hold her in my arms without twitching my eyes to stare at another guy.
why?
I might as well be celibate for the rest of my life..
gah.
I'm starting to rant at 2 AM in the morning again...
Especially his disapproval of my stead.
...
Haiz, I've always wondered what was my family's stand on my homosexual behavior... They've always been very passive about it, with occasional flares when I become over-passionate about my stand..
My younger brother is a typical homophobe straight guy, or at least he acts like one.
My elder brother is a leader in church.
My mum is a sunday school teacher.
My dad is an elder in my church.
and. Their son is gay.
sometimes, I wonder if they're accepting or tolerating. Or secretly planning something to "destroy" the homosexual thingie in me.
will gays go to hell?
I hear that fire and brimstone message around me everyday... I get quite sick of it, coz nobody understands that its not a choice that I wanted to make...
I mean, who doesn't want to have a girlfriend?
Who wants to have weird stares at people when they hold their partners hands?
Who likes to be talked behind their back?
Who likes to be shunned by the public?
Who likes to be hounded by the government?
Its not like I'm some fucking ugly freak or something that I can't find a girl.
Even if I have a girlfriend, I'll be hurting her more, because I can't hold her in my arms without twitching my eyes to stare at another guy.
why?
I might as well be celibate for the rest of my life..
gah.
I'm starting to rant at 2 AM in the morning again...
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Christianity, Apologetics, Hypothetically Speaking.
God, salvation, world, freedom...
You know.. time and again, I'm always surprised at the number of anti-christians out there... people who actually hate christianity with a vengence...
The main reasons I can compile can be broken down into 5 main pointers :
1) Christianity (for Christians) is deemed as an intolerant religion, becoz Christians believe that salvation can only be obtained through the belief that Jesus has cleansed your sins (John 3:16)
2) Christianity is deemed as a violent religion because of Dan Brown's interpretation of the Opus Dei and the "crusades" in the "middle ages".
3) Christianity is deemed as a narrow minded religion because Christians follow strictly by the bible, and interpretation by the Holy Spirit and nothing else.
4) Christianity is deemed as a polarizing religion because - if you dont obtain salvation, you WILL go to hell.
5) Christianity is deemed as a particularly intolerant religion, especially because of its staunch condemnation for homosexuality.
sigh.... the more I categorize, the more I realize why people actually hate Christianity...
I mean, why not? In the AJ circle, its even becoming "trendy" to be anti-christian... I mean like wtf?
sigh.. of course its easier to accept the practices of many new-age religions because of two factors that make it so appealing
i) I am a divine entity. In a human potential, I have divine potential to be a god.
ii) All religions are correct, there is no right or wrong religion, merely different practices. All religions lead to one path at the end, communal or self divinity (or enlightenment).
I mean, why not? right? Why can't humans be godlike in the first place?
Problem is, the bible states clearly that "we are born, liken in the image of God." - NOT God.
its easy to accept a religion that encompasses everything, then hold true to a religion that demands exclusivity...
I was debating with Alvin a few days ago... (he's a new-ager btw); about the Christian concept of God, and the polarization of Christianity as compared to other religions...
A) To grasp the concept of why people go to hell, is :
- God is holy (without sin)
- Nobody can approach God with sin.
- God desires that we can approach him.
- God formulates a be-all-end-all solution by erasing essential earthly blood sacrifice, with a divine blood sacrifice, by sacrificing His Son, Jesus - as prove of His love.
- That any human that believes in Jesus will live as "holy", without sin, and approachable to, and by God.
B) If you take out 3 factors, which are only justifiable to us Christians by pure faith, it shakes the entire foundation of the Christian faith.
- What if, God isn't holy? - I say this, approaching Christianity in the way of apologetics.
- What if, God, as an embodiment of love, allowed MANY ways to approach him?
- What if, God isn't a divine entity? But merely a powerful being that transcended?
this 3 factors... I can't explain, but I merely believe and trust with all my heart that what the bible writes is true.
what becomes of religion, if there is no God?
what becomes of God, if there is no word?
what becomes of the word, if it could (possibly) be corruptible?
*cries*
I am so confused... In my entire life, I'm definitely not a newbie in apologetics, but as I break down hypothetically the attributes of God, I start to wonder what am I believing in..
it boils down to one thing;
I fear death.
I'm scared shitless by it...
What is an eternity of not knowing for sure what will happen to you?
My final opinion is that Christianity is the safest religion to be with, in essence, like an insurance -
most other religions allow leeway, or self-justification, or better still, reincarnation not based on beliefs but by actions.
but Christianity is absolute.
One chance.
One life.
One God.
Believe, or die.
In truth... I'm afraid, I'd rather believe then die...
I believe in God, I believe with all my heart that He answers prayer, and I know that He loves me...
God loves me, and my life is in the palm of his hand..
Help me Lord...
My faith is shaken.... *cries*....
You know.. time and again, I'm always surprised at the number of anti-christians out there... people who actually hate christianity with a vengence...
The main reasons I can compile can be broken down into 5 main pointers :
1) Christianity (for Christians) is deemed as an intolerant religion, becoz Christians believe that salvation can only be obtained through the belief that Jesus has cleansed your sins (John 3:16)
2) Christianity is deemed as a violent religion because of Dan Brown's interpretation of the Opus Dei and the "crusades" in the "middle ages".
3) Christianity is deemed as a narrow minded religion because Christians follow strictly by the bible, and interpretation by the Holy Spirit and nothing else.
4) Christianity is deemed as a polarizing religion because - if you dont obtain salvation, you WILL go to hell.
5) Christianity is deemed as a particularly intolerant religion, especially because of its staunch condemnation for homosexuality.
sigh.... the more I categorize, the more I realize why people actually hate Christianity...
I mean, why not? In the AJ circle, its even becoming "trendy" to be anti-christian... I mean like wtf?
sigh.. of course its easier to accept the practices of many new-age religions because of two factors that make it so appealing
i) I am a divine entity. In a human potential, I have divine potential to be a god.
ii) All religions are correct, there is no right or wrong religion, merely different practices. All religions lead to one path at the end, communal or self divinity (or enlightenment).
I mean, why not? right? Why can't humans be godlike in the first place?
Problem is, the bible states clearly that "we are born, liken in the image of God." - NOT God.
its easy to accept a religion that encompasses everything, then hold true to a religion that demands exclusivity...
I was debating with Alvin a few days ago... (he's a new-ager btw); about the Christian concept of God, and the polarization of Christianity as compared to other religions...
A) To grasp the concept of why people go to hell, is :
- God is holy (without sin)
- Nobody can approach God with sin.
- God desires that we can approach him.
- God formulates a be-all-end-all solution by erasing essential earthly blood sacrifice, with a divine blood sacrifice, by sacrificing His Son, Jesus - as prove of His love.
- That any human that believes in Jesus will live as "holy", without sin, and approachable to, and by God.
B) If you take out 3 factors, which are only justifiable to us Christians by pure faith, it shakes the entire foundation of the Christian faith.
- What if, God isn't holy? - I say this, approaching Christianity in the way of apologetics.
- What if, God, as an embodiment of love, allowed MANY ways to approach him?
- What if, God isn't a divine entity? But merely a powerful being that transcended?
this 3 factors... I can't explain, but I merely believe and trust with all my heart that what the bible writes is true.
what becomes of religion, if there is no God?
what becomes of God, if there is no word?
what becomes of the word, if it could (possibly) be corruptible?
*cries*
I am so confused... In my entire life, I'm definitely not a newbie in apologetics, but as I break down hypothetically the attributes of God, I start to wonder what am I believing in..
it boils down to one thing;
I fear death.
I'm scared shitless by it...
What is an eternity of not knowing for sure what will happen to you?
My final opinion is that Christianity is the safest religion to be with, in essence, like an insurance -
most other religions allow leeway, or self-justification, or better still, reincarnation not based on beliefs but by actions.
but Christianity is absolute.
One chance.
One life.
One God.
Believe, or die.
In truth... I'm afraid, I'd rather believe then die...
I believe in God, I believe with all my heart that He answers prayer, and I know that He loves me...
God loves me, and my life is in the palm of his hand..
Help me Lord...
My faith is shaken.... *cries*....
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Flat Foot Woes
waah.. does anybody have any idea how to make a normal sports shoe into something that can be used for flat footed people?..
=/
sigh... hurts me when I see my dear in pain when he walks around with his new sports shoe...
=/
sigh... hurts me when I see my dear in pain when he walks around with his new sports shoe...
Thursday, July 05, 2007
I must blog. I must blog. I must blog. I wanna blog.
*Andrew tries to psycho himself*
My blog is a reflection of my mentality at the time of writing, it shows the past and the present, and compares both ways.
Sometimes, I wonder.. Have I ever been straight before?...
I've tried... definitely, but was I truly straight before?...
.. weird fact huh?..
I've never ever believed in the infamous "cooties" disease or the "pansy-wussies"... but all I know is that in primary school, I liked being with guys.
I only liked being with guys...
I did have girl friends that were close to me, they were friends, but not necessarily people I liked to hang around with...
ok. now that is normal.
Until I had a crush on this guy called Alan. He's truly the definition of asshole, if there ever was one.
Not that he affected my life one bit. He's in the EM3 class after all.
He had those cool "Kyo-like" parting hairstyle, and a very muscular physique for his age. (my age). And he intimidated everybody with his fist.
of course, he was regularly seen in detention classes as well.
I used to have... umm... butterflies? whenever he waited for his girlfriend(s) outside my classroom.
[author's note - (s) refers to the number of girls he has dated from my class of which 75% of them are my friends]
I'd watch him play basketball and soccer from afar, wishing that I could join in. But I HAD to be recalled back to class for supplementary lessons and remedial almost every other day.
and... a person of my class asking for a game with him is like a hare saying to a lion "bite me!" "bite me!".
=/
I had crushes on many other guys too.... Guess I shouldn't name them here, lest they get.... umm... irritated.
There are only 3 girls in my life I ever fell for...
2 of them thought I was too immature to start a proper relationship....
(which incidentally was quite right... after all, how can you possible hold your girlfriend's hand and say... WOW THAT GUY IS HOT!! -.-)
and the last one.... well.. she doesn't know I liked her... doubt she'd even think I fell for her in her wildest imaginations...
haha... but one thing that is common among all 3 is that, they all exhibited traits of
1) independence
2) genuine care for people around them
3) *grins* a slight tomboyish nature..
hmm...
Its quite scary.. come to think of it... I actually.. almost fell for 3 girls... =X
... could I be straight after all?..
heh.
hahahahahahah...
NO WAY!!!
a heart that stays true..
more valuable then anything the world can buy.
a soul that shines...
rarer then any gemstone found in the universe.
a will to love...
can only be paid with your life to live.
If love is so difficult?
Why love?
The answer lies deep within everyone of us... A soulmate, a companion...
A guardian angel to call your own..
When you hold that hand, for the first time..
Both becomes the hands of guardian angels...
To protect, to serve,
for better, for worse,
That is love. A never ending spiral of sacrifice that gets paid over, and over, and over again....
- Andrew
*Andrew tries to psycho himself*
My blog is a reflection of my mentality at the time of writing, it shows the past and the present, and compares both ways.
Sometimes, I wonder.. Have I ever been straight before?...
I've tried... definitely, but was I truly straight before?...
.. weird fact huh?..
I've never ever believed in the infamous "cooties" disease or the "pansy-wussies"... but all I know is that in primary school, I liked being with guys.
I only liked being with guys...
I did have girl friends that were close to me, they were friends, but not necessarily people I liked to hang around with...
ok. now that is normal.
Until I had a crush on this guy called Alan. He's truly the definition of asshole, if there ever was one.
Not that he affected my life one bit. He's in the EM3 class after all.
He had those cool "Kyo-like" parting hairstyle, and a very muscular physique for his age. (my age). And he intimidated everybody with his fist.
of course, he was regularly seen in detention classes as well.
I used to have... umm... butterflies? whenever he waited for his girlfriend(s) outside my classroom.
[author's note - (s) refers to the number of girls he has dated from my class of which 75% of them are my friends]
I'd watch him play basketball and soccer from afar, wishing that I could join in. But I HAD to be recalled back to class for supplementary lessons and remedial almost every other day.
and... a person of my class asking for a game with him is like a hare saying to a lion "bite me!" "bite me!".
=/
I had crushes on many other guys too.... Guess I shouldn't name them here, lest they get.... umm... irritated.
There are only 3 girls in my life I ever fell for...
2 of them thought I was too immature to start a proper relationship....
(which incidentally was quite right... after all, how can you possible hold your girlfriend's hand and say... WOW THAT GUY IS HOT!! -.-)
and the last one.... well.. she doesn't know I liked her... doubt she'd even think I fell for her in her wildest imaginations...
haha... but one thing that is common among all 3 is that, they all exhibited traits of
1) independence
2) genuine care for people around them
3) *grins* a slight tomboyish nature..
hmm...
Its quite scary.. come to think of it... I actually.. almost fell for 3 girls... =X
... could I be straight after all?..
heh.
hahahahahahah...
NO WAY!!!
a heart that stays true..
more valuable then anything the world can buy.
a soul that shines...
rarer then any gemstone found in the universe.
a will to love...
can only be paid with your life to live.
If love is so difficult?
Why love?
The answer lies deep within everyone of us... A soulmate, a companion...
A guardian angel to call your own..
When you hold that hand, for the first time..
Both becomes the hands of guardian angels...
To protect, to serve,
for better, for worse,
That is love. A never ending spiral of sacrifice that gets paid over, and over, and over again....
- Andrew
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
sigh...
sigh... recently, I've really lost interest in having to do anything with the computer... though I just sit in front of it and stare blankly...
... playing pokemon.
Things aren't really going as nicely as I thought it would be... I wake up so freaking late when I expect to wake up earlier...
... I've even lost interest in blogging.... =/
sorry people...
.. sigh..
... playing pokemon.
Things aren't really going as nicely as I thought it would be... I wake up so freaking late when I expect to wake up earlier...
... I've even lost interest in blogging.... =/
sorry people...
.. sigh..
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